Ana

Dairy of an Anorexic Girl
2011-06-14 03:43:31 (UTC)

Binge D:

I feel like a fat cow! I binged on a whole box of granola bars tonight! A whole box of Special K Granola bars! I feel like a piece of trash. I've felt like that all week, though. My life is so pathetic. I don't fit in with anyone, I'm socially awkward, and I'm just the little misfit wherever I go. I wish I had a close friend who understood me. Someone who knew about my Anorexia and Bulimia and still loved me. Someone who saw behind this stupid, awkward, fat outside of mine, and loved me for me. But I guess that is just too much to ask for.
I've really felt alone these past few days. I've felt like I'm so ugly and that nobody wants to be around me. I guess I can see why. I'm awkward, have social anxiety problems, I'm a bit of a party pooper, and I just can't seem to get anything right. I know this whole thing was pretty much me ranting about myself and how messed up I am... but, right now, I really feel like I am made all wrong. Like I don't deserve to live anymore.




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