CarriePotter

Life sucks.
2011-06-03 04:08:42 (UTC)

Ugh...

So I decided that keeping a "diary" might be a good idea. God knows I don't trust my parents enough to keep a real one... That is one fight I can stay out of. But keeping a diary might help me get it off my chest, ya know? Anyway, hi. My name is carrie. This diary isn't for me to gush about my latest crush (though on a good day, there might be a little bit of that;) ), but its more of a place to talk about stuff I can't tell anyone else.


I am really tired of my parents. Usually I am getting slapped left and right... By hands and words... But now they are suddenly acting all lovey. Which is weird, considering that my mom has told me several times that she hates me... Hmmmmmm... Could they know? My cuts have been getting deeper....... And I have lost weight. But not enough. I'm 5'1 and 120. I want to be 96. That's my goal. Eating fully stops tomorrow. Nothing but water. If I brake it, I'll puke it all up. I have tO be pretty by august. Ha. Not like that's going to happen. But it's worth a shot. Anyway... I really need a break from all the bitterness. While my folks act really sweet now, it doesn't mean that they don't sweetly tell me I'm fat, ugly, stupid, and a failure. Lord, take me now. I hate my life.




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