Lost Soul

~This Crazy Life Of Mine~
2011-05-18 17:51:56 (UTC)

Does he really care??

Its been a crazy few day and I'm not sure what to think of them. For almost 2 weeks now we have been together every night and its amazing. I hate not being near him. But he's so different. I know that the stuff that he has been though the past 2 years has changed the person he is today but I'm not sure how to handle it... He's not the same person that I know/knew 2 years ago. I know this shouldn't surprise me but it does. Big time. He needs time to heal his wounds and I know that. Its just hard to expect. I just want to rap him up and hold, cuddle, and love him and never let go. But I cant! He don't want it yet. Its going to be a long slow road... But I'm going to do it. I don't know what it is about this man but I'm so much in love with him its not even funny. We haven't been together in over 2 years but my feelings for him are almost the same for him as they were when we first met. He is/was my high school sweetheart and the farther of my child. And I want so much to be with him and now that I have that chance again I cant mess it up. I just cant. I need someone to walk through this with me but I'm so lone.. Well I feel like it anyway... Its a hard road and every day that passes I see more light. So I think things are/will start looking up...