Waka Waka Waka
Purring like a cat
I think (and I'm praying) that I finally got it through my think skull that I am over him----there is nothing left. I found myself giving advice to one of my guy friends going through a divorce and the next day he called me to tell me how much I helped him that night and how kind my words were and how the things I was telling him made sence to him-------it was a hard slap in my face. Here I was telling him how to move on and how to handle the pain and confusion and I was telling him to do things that I COULDN'T EVEN DO FOR MYSELF!!! Very bitter pill to swallow. I'm coming to terms that our relationship was sick and all he ever did was take and all I ever did was give. Would I really want one of my boys in a relationship like that???? HELL NO!!!! So why in the world did I hold on for so long to the joke of a relationship we were in? No more!!! Today is going to be the first day of a new chapter in my life----today I am taking back ME!!! Next month will be a year of my "Self Pity---Oh poor little me party" and I am done!!! It is summer----it is beautiful outside and I am going to start putting myself first. Hell----I even called into work today and told them that I wasn't coming in!!! How's that for a brand new start??!!!!