Joan

Chapter 34.5
2011-05-09 10:28:52 (UTC)

last week

Oh man, I missed an entire week?!

Last week was entirely shitty so I can see why I missed it but damn, I want to journal this stuff.

Wednesday I called Colby after obsessing over him Monday & Tuesday every second of every day.

I called him, pouring my heart out, going into sobbing crying mode quickly and excused myself from my office and sat in my car.

He stood his ground and repeated himself saying he was "done". "It is over" and "It is too late". I just couldn't believe what I was hearing. I did the typical chick thing and asked "Is there someone else?" and HOLY SHIT HE SAID YES! He said they had been seeing each other for about TWO WEEKS. (fucker)

He said she saw his relationship status change (on April 20th) and contacted him and it started. At that time he hadn't slept with her. I begged and pleaded for him to wait, not to move on.

I told him I wasn't letting him go, that I loved him, that I deserved a second chance, that our family deserved a second chance. (I got no where). I quickly said it didn't matter, I still loved him and was going to not give up. Told him to have a nice day and hung up.

Thursday night his "girlfriend" changed their Facebook status to say they were "in a relationship". WTF? REALLY COLBY? Damn, that hurt.

THEN, he posted a picture of them KISSING! Talk about salt in the wound. I was crushed beyond words. I was a puddle, a complete mess. I cried and cried and cried all day Friday. Thank goodness the office was dead, all upper management were out all day at a golf thing. The 2 girls I worked with tried to help but I just cried all damn day. It was horrible.

Saturday I was alone, my boys at their dads, and I woke up crying. Kim, the girl that I accused Colby of cheating with, came and was with me for 4 or 5 hours Saturday. Took me to lunch, made me eat and just held me when I cried. I can never thank her enough for that. She is also going through some horrible life times and I took all her energy that day.

Yesterday was Mother's day and because of the Xanax I was able to pretty much keep it together and enjoy my day. My boys were fantastic and really made it a special day. I love them.




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