thebombgirl

This aint a fairy tale.
2011-04-30 13:26:42 (UTC)

Random Week.

Finally, I've been trying to find an online Diary that I can express myself since I saw the movie, The Perfect Man. That was a long long time ago. No that I'm a sophomore in high school I found it.

So yeah, I'm in this school, I was new last year, freshmen year. I only knew a Junior girl, that now is a Senior. But we don't talk that much anymore. I could say my best friend (Luis Angel) is a Senior. And since the school year ends soon I'm sad cause I don't know how I'm going to survive next year, I barely made it through this one. Between academic stuff, since I'm not that into school, my love life, which has been a huge mess this year and my friends which I've realized there are many enemies and haters disguised as what we call "friends". So for you to understand I'll just tell you that last year I had a few crushes. But it wasn't a big deal. During this last summer I started talking to this)guy, Jaime. He was one of my 'homies' or bestie's best friend (lewis). Thing is in junior prom everyone thought we were together cause we hug a lot but it was just friendly hugs. But his big college girl sister told me he liked me. Turns out I didn't like him back that much, I was attracted to him, I thought he was cute and someway hot. Plus he is a nice guy. Not a usual jerk. You don't find that everywhere. So I said I should go for it. So I did. Later on I fell for him hard. He was my first love, first kiss, first boyfriend, EVER. Sadly, it didn't last long. Everyone, including myself thought it was going to last. For some reason it didn't. Why? I think it was comunication, not only that but that was one of the main problems. He went on a cruise and came back all weird. He did not cheated on me to make things clear. But we didn't talk much, only in school. Oh and he is in my class, all my classes. So I see him all day but in lunch he went to play basketball all the time. Which I had no problem cause that is his life but once a week he could spend it with me. So a senior girl, Fany, she had ther 17th birthday party the same day as Edy's 15th birthday in a public place. Jaime and I where supposed to go together to Fany's but instead he went to Edy's. No, he did not cheated on me either. I have to admit. I cheated on him. I don't even remember how it happened. I didn't even wanted to. I don't remember anything. But for some random reason, it happened. I was going to tell him, when the time was right. But since we don't out of school since he came back from the cruise, I had no chance cause in school everyone likes to get involved in everything. So I was planning to tell him on our upcoming date. But, my 'friend' Fany told him first. Later on I realized she is a couple breaker type of girl, which I didn't knew. And some 8th grader girl, Monica that hates me for no specific reason told him stuff too. So he broke up with me. I cried so much. I just couldn't help it. And I hate crying in public. We tried to get back together for 6 months after the breakup but he became or started to show he was extremely jealous all the time. Specially that most of my friends are guys. Girls bring too much drama but Jaime, he brought more drama than any of my other girl friends. But I loved him, I still do. I'm always gonna love him. I mean, first love NEVER dies. I still feel inside of me I love him. But, I'm no longer going to wait for him to trust me again. I stopped talking to a lot of my guy friends because of him. Like Fernando and Caleb. I've known Caleb since I was on my old school. Is the only one left from my 'before high school life'. And I stopped talking to him because of Jaime. For nothing. He started liking a friend of mine, yes, one of my 'best friends'. Since then, he's been ignoring me and acting like I just don't exist. But enough about that... Let's talk about my week.

Spring Break is over. I started school on Thursday. On Monday, I went to the pool. Tuesday I went to a friend's house, Itzel. Well, her brother Luife is one of my truest friends, and that is for SURE. He's been there for me since the day we met. No joke. On his house, he was not there-.-. So I hanged out with his sister like some previous ocations. While we where talking this guy came over, Javier. I call him chewbaca cause he's really hairy. When I started dating Jaime he wanted me to dump him for him. So I hate him so much cause he was my first super fight with my ex boyfriend. Ugh, still not used to say my ex boyfriend :( . Anywho. Yeah, he kissed me in Luife's house. I got so freaking mad. But that's out of my head, since he now likes Itzel he wont tell anything. haha. Javier is a 9th grader, a freshmen. So is luife. and Itzel, an 8th grader. Still in middle school. That day, when Luife got home I finally told him I like some guy. He's name? Andre. He's blonde with curly hair. For me everyone is tall since I'm only 4'11 ft. He plays soccer just like me. He's nice but he's an 8th grader. But in my school that's often seen. My best friend Veronica has a boyfriend in 7th grade. She's 16, he's 12. So yeah, and my friend Luis Gabriel is a sophomore with me, his girlfriend is a Senior. I have a friend that's a college girl, her ex boyfriend is a senior in my school. So yeah, it's not that big a deal. Problem is, he broke up with his girlfriend two weeks ago or something, and that 8th grader girl that hates me, Monica is best friends with her. Meaning she started gossiping around all the 8th grade Andre cheated on her with me. Which is bullshit and I really don't care. I'm an 10th grader, she's an 8th grader, if she keeps talking shit she's going down. Lately he's been so sweet with me. Yesterday Friday he was so lovely and sweet and ugh, I'm falling for him hard. This morning he texted me. The problem is, Andre was Jaime's first jealousy freak out when we where together and yesterday when I said hi to Andre and he hugged me, we stayed like that and where talking, a little more closer, we could kiss. We had a moment. And when I turned around Jaime was looking at us. Felt weird since I'll always love Jaime for the rest of my life. I said nothing interesting but thing is, I have to go. I'm selling some tickets for a party at Q lounge this upcoming Friday. So I have to go, Andre's best friend Gabriel aka Choco just called. I really have to go. He's in a hurry and I'm selling him some tickets. I'll come later and keep expressing myself in some other weird way. Ba-Bye.




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