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2011-04-23 20:55:57 (UTC)

A TALK TO THE DARK SIDE OF ME (written in Sept 2010)

A TALK TO THE DARK SIDE OF ME

Who can you be,
You who seem somewhat dark to me?
What do I seem to want to know about you?
Can you tell me more about you?

Why do you do what you do?
I have seen you taking control of me at times.
I have let myself be dominated by you at times.
Do you think yourself to be stronger than me?

You seem to hide yourself from the view of others at times.
You seem to fear to be seen by others in what you do.
Do you believe that others can harm you,
When they see what you do?

You hide from your close ones.
What do you do behind their backs?
Do you want to be in control of yourself?
Do you need to do what you do?

What do you gain from what you do?
You make me question my beliefs and my faith.
Why do I let myself be convinced by you at times?
Do I want to get rid of you?

Should I stay away from you?
You make me fall in your trap again and again.
Do you realise what you have done in the past?
Have you felt remorseful for what you have done?

Will I fall in your trap again?
Will I let myself be dominated by you?
Do I feel that I can be protected from you?
Do I need to let myself be controlled by you?

Is there something I can tell you,
That would be of help to me?
Can you stop pulling me into your trap?
Can you stop dominating me?

How long should I talk to you?
What more should I say to you?
What can possibly make you understand,
That I need you to stay away from me.

I seem to want to gather enough strength,
To cut myself off from you,
To block myself out from you,
To prevent you from harming me further.

Do I want to be freed from you forever?
Can I be freed from you forever?
Will you leave me and free myself from you?
Will you stop being after me?

I struggle with you through these words,
You come towards me in various forms,
And at various times.
Do you need to come towards me again?

I do not seem to recognise you right away.
You come from a distance,
To pull myself into your trap.
What is it that makes me fall into your trap again and again?




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