Seems like these days I'm just here wanting to disappear.
E. recently broke up with me because he wanted freedom. I spent 7 months with him. I guess I'm an idiot anyways because he says he loves me with all his heart but doesnt want to be in a relationship. I want to move on but I can't. I'm just tired of hurting. I can seem to shut down. I havent felt this human since my aunt died in 05'. He's better than the last bf that I wrote about in which we broke up last June. Because he did get physically abusive. Somedays I wish I was never here