Focus

Over the hills and through the woods❣️
2011-03-01 01:53:31 (UTC)

I FEEL SICK !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY ME?????? What does this life have in store for me? am I gonna ever find out? Im ready to jump off a fucking bridge , like tonight !

So many thoughts ,not enough time. So many feelings I need a drink of wine. Im so fucking tired of shit that I should not be going through its crazy. I look out my window wondering how can I get up in that sky, yes on that cloud right there. The one with the wings that look like a dragon. I wanna get away for awhile. Not forever, just a while.

How can I convince myself that I am worthy? How can I explain to my mind that I can be successful? I deserve to be happy, Yes me. I feel like I have gone through enough shit now. It's time. it's time for me to sil on an ocean. Lay out in the sun & let it kiss my skin. Turn me another color. I, yes me, want to feel the breez in my hair as I sail the ocen. Wow, what a feeling to be me, yes me

What is it gonna take for me to wake up out my dream? I dont wanna wake up, not this dream anyway. What I do wanna wake up from is my fucking reality. Can I wake up from this shit? Fuck waking up out of my dream, let me stay here because this dream is the shit. I love it.


Whats a girl 2 do? I mean , I know I can change things. But I dont like pain. I want this relationship to end like romeo & juliet. I want romeo to die in this play I dont wanna die. But I do wanna be free (if u will ).

Yep me, free . free from pain & stupid shit. Unneccesary. Free form the contrary. Lies that people tell me. Free from pain in my heart of leaving things behind if I sail off in my boat( my boat in my dream)... For now anyway. I can have a boat to sail. I must get free from this relationship. Only problem is ........I can't : (




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