Kitsune

Theoretically Incorrect
2011-02-19 08:03:15 (UTC)

Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again

Everyday I have thoughts I want to jot down. I quickly take out my
phone and note it uncompleted. It soon gets erased hence why I never
post. I am currently reading "Dear Diary" by Lesley Arfin (in which I
will talk about it another entry). It's basically her diary of growing
up throughout the years. She inspired me to start writing down on
paper instead. Yay for 'productiveness'. Yay for sarcasm of 'yay'.

Late January I felt consistent with my life. I soon started to break
down again this month. In my sixth period class today everyone had to
create their own weekly schedule. As I looked at the schedules of the
people next to me. I came to the conclusion I have no life and I am
really lonely. Not a great encouragement to say to yourself. Then we had
to form a study group with the people in my class. I had no decision of
who I wanted to be with. I really dislike and am incompatible with the
girls in my study group. They're are the annoying obsessive teenage fan
girls you'd hate. Well two of them. I hope I can convince another study
group to let me in.

Since I never wrote anything of my volunteer work. Now is the time to
do so. Currently as of December I have been volunteering at a small
but not grand hospital. It's located beneath where I live, in another
city. The city is still ghetto but most of the shops and restaurants
are Asian owned. I am so grateful to have applied here because it
actually makes my days better. I work on Mondays and Fridays, four in
the afternoon until eight in the night. Sometimes it's rather boring
being surrounded by adults above 30. Whom of which usually don't speak
proper English. At least it's a small step to improving my depression.


The title is a La Dispute song.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A1F3Nd-JYts
An amazing lyrical poetic progressive post-hardcore and emo (genre)
band.


I was writing this whilst listening to a Brian Eno and Harold Budd
split called "The Plateaux of Mirror" [ambient, electronic and
minimal]. Here is a download http://www.mediafire.com/?4ylhnmjgtjn and
if you like it, check out and support their other work.




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