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Journal of a Jedi Padawan
2011-02-19 03:40:08 (UTC)

A Queens Concern

Dear Journal, I come to you today, not only as a Jedi, but as a
Queen worried for her people.
No, not worried, afraid. While the people of Kegan are somewhat
oblivious to whats going on around the galaxy, I'm not. I know the
constant battle between Jedi and Sith is still going on. This battle
has gone on for years. I ran away from it for a long time, then
ignored it in hiding. But now, a true and full Jedi and a Queen, I
can't anymore. Its devastated me! I looked at the Sith territories.
They have most of the galaxy. The Jedi are few and have few
territories. As much as I hate to admit it, the Jedi are loosing!
Thats why I went to Kashyyk, even if I became a wolf. I want to
comfort them and give them hope. I know we are far and few, but I have
hope we CAN get the galaxy back. Its a miracle the Jedi are still
alive! And also that Kegan hasn't been found. They've come awfully
close lately though. I'm convinced that if this keeps up, I will have
to create a military, and a good one at that.
Honestly I've contemplated letting the Sith win. I mean, it wasn't
too bad when they ruled once. Besides, it would be better than killing
our own brothers in a war for all of this. Yes, families have been
torn apart from this. So, fighting in this war is pointless, right? I
mean... they've already won twice. Why not a third time?
But then I saw the faces of the kids in my head. The ones that I
used to teach and mess around with and talk to back on Kegan. I
remembered those in the hotel as it collapsed. The look of not seeing
their families, fear, and uncertainty in their eyes shone vividly in
my head. I knew if the Sith regained rule, I would die along with
every Jedi and every hope and those looks would be constant. I think I
would rather die than see that look on their faces. But I wonder if
this is a loosing battle.
I'm scared for my people! How can I protect them from the Sith
when I'm struggling to fight them myself? I'll figure out someway. It
just scared me because they are so close to winning this war. I have
too much to loose now. Friends, allies, a planet, practically family!
I can't afford to loose this, honestly, and neither can my people. Any
suggestions are welcome. I only wish I was a better Queen than I am
now. Well, May the Force be with you.




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