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Ashleigh
2011-02-14 04:11:30 (UTC)

February 13, 2011

So tomorrow is valentines day, I wanna get my hair did for the
interview on Tuesday but I think i am just gonna cancel sso that i
can get jake a present for vday... its our first:)

I just found out on saturday that Im pregnant. I am very excited I
just hope it will give jacob some incentive to get clean from as
much as possible and move forward with his life and get away from
whatever he thinks he can't. he has made such great changes in his
life and he could still be much better for himself. I think he
doesn't realize how much of a wonderful man he is. He is so used to
being talked down to he doesn't know what it is like to have
positive encouragement anddoesn't know what to do.

He spent $130 last night on "stupid shit" then this morning spent 60
on his vicoden script and now I won't get anything for vday i don't
think,,, i hate being selfish but I wish he just would think about
me and him.. did he really need that 80 extra from Mike??? I don't
think so... that could very well have been my present.. but i guess
tht is me being selfish and that is unfair.. it was his money and he
should be able to do whatever he wants with it since he works for
it., I don't work for my money so i CANT SAY SHIT.

I just want a lot of things in life... i want a new car.. we are
going to need a new house.. all of which takes money and we cant
save becuz there is alaways something he or we need...

i just feel kinda neglected today frm him.. he says he loves me sooo
much but tell me.. did valentines day just appear?? No.. it has been
coming for a whole year, i even been hinting for weeks about
flowers. SELFISH me again i supppose,,

ohh well i gotta go.. night night....




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