Focus

Over the hills and through the woods❣️
2011-02-07 19:15:37 (UTC)

OMG I NEED TO FIND MYSELF AGAIN !!!!!!

So many thoughts & so many hours 2 think about them. But , not enough
time 2 solve them. I can solve them I know me. I know I can get thru
this I can be me. I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel
because I'm steady going forward. Man ! is it a mental challenge 2
get thru some days. Most of my days are not like others but I do know
that I can make it through. When I feel like giving up & saying fuck
the world & my life......... I STOP & THINK AGAIN!!!

Yes me, & girl who thought shit couldn't get any worse. I really know
I can get through the madness. YEP I can do it. I just have to find
my sane place & try 2 stay there more than a little bit.


Quick brain storm of thoughts :

So I think, think about my future think about my life. Wondering will
I get it right?.... I know I love ,I know what pain is. I feel it
more often than I think I should. Somethings in the past some things
still linger but, most of all I pinpoint them all with my finger. I
wish it could be my middle finger 2 say fuck it all but I can't
because all of the shit is in a ball . A ball inside my mind not
ready to be unwind...ded. No, not yet says my pain. I wander a little
bit longer knowing this shit is not what I am fond of. I need bigger
things. My mind is stimulated from school but in this relationship I
feel like a fucking fool..... I wanna leave but I stay as I make it 2
another day. Another day 2 give thanks , thanks 4 my life because I
love it so dearly . I wish I had more time to continue 2 write
freely..........


c ya !




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