nishka

My Feelings
2011-01-30 20:06:16 (UTC)

I so want to give to others Jesus

I have always wanted to give to thers that does not have. I really
don't have. well. yes I do/ I have a roof over my head for today. I
have food to eat. I have heat to warm me.I have cloths to wear.. but
I often think about others. are they all safe from harm. are they
all warm. do they have a full belly? I know it sounds crazy/ but
that is what I want to do. I want to give.. but how am I going to do
that/ I am sitting here watching the 700 club.. and I just know that
if God wants me to do this. it will happen. I have to figur out a
way to get people to give me cloths and food or whatever they can.
soo I can go and give it away free. Free Lord.. isn't that
wonderful.. now Lord. I need your help. show me how I can do this.
I am not the brightest person.lol that for sure. I have goone
through alot. but there are many of me's out there that are going
through what I have gone through. its strange. but as I was watching
the 700 club/ thats what came to my mind and heart.. to be able to
give. ok god. what do I give. iam on SSI. barely making it myself..
but I will somehow do the footwork and if you Lord can open the
doors for me to recieve the things that the true real needy people
need/ I will someohow get it to them. I will, if I need to. is take
this old car of mine and sit on the streets with a sign, saying Free
cloths. food or whatever it is that you Lord want me to give away//.
I am just alittle worried cause I never done anything like that. but
I truely believe that if you want me to do this. than so be it...
Lord. I know that my mind is all over the place. and I ramble alot.
but you have seen me through alot in my life. There were many o
time God that I should of died but you did not allow it, I know in
my heart that I can do this jesus if you can please show me the way.
I thank you lord for always listening to me. I even know that when I
was being beaten at times. you had your angels covering me so I
didn't die.. I know that when I was being stabbed that one night.
you made them only cuts that would heal. The times that I was raped.
you seen me through all that to.. Lord. I in an mental abusive
realtionship right now. and you are helping me to get out of it. and
I lknow I will. because with you lord all things are possible, I
just know that you are here for me and others ot. if they would only
believe that you will do for them if they do the footwork. and if
you do not want it to happen/ it won't.. I have to have patients and
it will come.I just know it. I have always wanted to help in some
way. and I still do. I have to put this on paper cause I tend to
forget sometimes., I have this brain hemmorage and I have only had
two brain surgeyes, I al alive lord because of you. I sitll have
this carzy brain hemmorage and two more operations to go..you know I
have had it for more than a year and I am still alive. I want to
give back god so so much, but I am not all that smart. I do not have
any moneys. but the main thing I have is you... and I know that as
long as I have this faith. you will see me through this to. I just
want to give lord. thats all. just to give. please open the doors
to whatever it is you want me to do. I love you lord with all my
heart. I am new to you lord. well. not all that new .but ,, well.
you know.. I don't have to say anything else.. I thank you lord
for allowing me another day..I have to someone find away. God if
this si what you want from me. please show me the way. show me Lord
and I will do what you want me to do.Amen,




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