RAINY

an isolated diary
2011-01-18 20:49:38 (UTC)

escape

Dear Mom,

Last night i again had a dream about u..I called u out loud..No reason
why i wanna keep u beside me ...and hug when i came home ..I missed my
family so much u know.........I indeed regret coming here...staying
here with them.. I could not become mature and too innocent compared
to others of my friends...because of the way i chosen...

Mom, u know what ?? during my life here, i could not have a friend
beside me... As i used to overly enamored with my friends in
Vietnam..., they one by one hurting me ...seriously.. A2...ilum...then
Mihu...I am not sure what i can do..u know... Since i came back from
last year, i have lost all confidence in friendship......I decide to
rejuvenate myself, my wrong way chosen... I decide not to love , or
believe anybody else except my family and myself only... Many of
people blame me...but if anybody can understand me now ??

To love someone so much..and now what can i have now??
Jobless.....homeless...and isolated ....is it worth for what i should
deserved...??? I feel this world so unfair...and unjustice some how...
I enthusiastically devote in to friendship...but finally ..they just
disappoint me ...I miss them but they ignore me ...

Mom, if u heard something badly about me.. plz not disappointed abt
me...and plz give me some time prove u that...I am changing but always
still your innocent daughter...I love u.., love my dad, my sister. and
my niece more than anybody else.....

I love u, Mom




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