Lost-Soul

My Inner Most Secrets
2011-01-17 01:24:16 (UTC)

Why This Again

Dear Diary:

Why does this happen in my heart every time i talk to him. He is just
my best friend the one i will go to when I'm down. the one i would
miss the most if he left, but when he comes on and talks to me every
thing in my world just get messed up and I'm not sure what to do any
more. I haven't had this problem for a while now because he hasn't
been on msn much, but he was on today. I want to tell him everything
but i feel like shit because i have someone i love very much, but hey
I'm only human right. God help my before i lose my mind and snap. I'm
about ready to just start pushing everyone away now. I wish i knew
what to do. I wish someone could help me. Some days i just don't even
want to get out of bed because of this. I really just don't know what
to do any more. All i know is i love him and i love my boyfriend, i
cant help it. if i lost either of them i would die inside i just know
it. I just don't want to hurt them.




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