Kitsune

Theoretically Incorrect
2011-01-10 09:56:29 (UTC)

Schools

I just don't know what to do anymore. I can't even type because I am
crying my heart out. The one opportunity I had to get my life better
is gone because of a deadline. I really really want to die in my
sleep. If I call the offices to ask them if they can let me fill out a
change of school application they won't let me. Trust me, it's not
going to be possible to change schools. If I tell my mother that I
can't change she won't be mad but if I say let's go to court to fight
for me she will definitely say no. I don't want to stay for senior
year at my current school. I'm trying to make this depression go away
but fate is not letting me. All I wanted is to go to a new school make
new friends, change my lifestyle, be happy but I can't. How will I
make friends in college?, that's the hardest. I really don't want to
change to make myself worth while at this horrible school. I know
already I am not going to prom, graduation, activities, etc. Yeah, my
family will be mad but they can't force me. They have to realize what
this has done to me these past years even if I never told them. I
don't know what to do. My head is cloudy from all the crying. I don't
know. I don't know. I don't know. I have lost faith in everything. My
mom had said yes of me going to live with my grandmother and going to
school there but I don't know if she will accept. I don't really like
it over there, the people are great but the environment is not what I
expect. I feel sorry for all the people who want their life to be safe
and ok because I know what it feels like. Others have to ruin it for
others. The world will never change.




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