Listen. Don't Speak.
I had a wonderful Christmas Eve with my family and my boyfriend. It
went really well and it was exactly what I need- assurance from my
parents. The day before I was with my boyfriend's family and I had a
great time. His parents have been very welcoming with me that I'm
taking it in in small doses; what I mean is, I've never had a
'friendship' with my previous ex bf's parents. Not only am I getting
use to this, but his mother and future sister in-law gave me a
Christmas present! I felt so guilty that I didn't give them anything.
It definitely crossed my mind, but I thought it was either too soon
or, once we start giving, it'll never stop! hahaha! I'm extremely
Christmas Day was calm and relaxing at home. Having renato out of the
home has change our family dynamic- 180 degrees. Dinner was calm, my
parents were getting along. Looking back I can't remember a dinner
like that. Well there's been times when he came home in the middle of
dinner, but even then dinner was ruined because he wasn't with the
family preparing. I don't really care to know how he spent Christmas
or what he ate. I think I'm... well, I know I'm still angry with him.
My mother has forgiven him, but I can't. For so many years I've been
angry with him. He was never - well, I've give him some credit- been
an older sibling who cared about his only sister/younger sister.
I don't want to think about this anymore, bye.