younglady_72

Lil about me
2010-12-15 21:08:06 (UTC)

December 15 2010

Went to bed on time last night but was wonce again up at 5am,
somehow though it is still 4 hours sleep i am so much more tired.

Today was another maintenance day and as he had said i received much
more spanking than the first session. i'm writting this with a
stinging bottom and a confused mind. What is so different with this
mentor? Why do i feel the way i do? My bottom has stung before after
disciplines but instead of centered i feel scattered and alone. He
wants to talk with me and i know he wanted to talk more but i just
couldn't then. i messed up during part of maintenance and received
discipline for that. i need to slow down and listen carefully, i
know that. It is hard to hear but i'll need to be diligent in asking
if i don't hear something well. i don't know how i will do this
again in two days. The only think i can think of is the vast
difference in the type of relationship i have with this mentor. My
first one we did discipline only, never maintenance and he would sit
next to me as we talked after. Just quiet time as i readjust. The
one that did maintenance we had a closer relationship, warmer. i'll
need to work something out as the after feeling is not a good one.

Long talk regarding my eating habits this afternoon. Need to make
sure i eat before noon. That will help keep me more in check with my
eating. i did end up with 2 meals yesterday as well as 6 glasses of
water.

Spent the morning talking Christmas, sorting out gifts and gift
ideas, online shopping etc with a few family members. Felt like a
waste of time given i didn't get to work on my project here at the
house but it was needed and did accomplish some good things there.
Sister was so distraught over the emotional upheaval the night
before it was a lot of talking and sympathizing with her.




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