george

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2010-12-13 12:27:36 (UTC)

festa

Last night I went to a festa with the people who own the horses I train.

I got really pissed. There are these two bitchy English girls however,
who for some reason dislike me, and I think thats because I in no way
want to fuck either of them, though I have this sneaking suspicion
they do. I think one just likes to know she's in controle of the male
errection, but I'm just not into her.

They drink too much, in typical pom fashion and are always negative
and love to put you down, sort of in a joking way, but I just dont
find ptting people down for a laugh as being very attractive. I wish
they weren't in my friend circle....

The fucking cops are everywhere at the moment and checking everyones
papers! Its because a foreigner went and made trouble. He shot his x
girlfriend just near where we live and now the cops are pissed at all
foreigners.

Some cops were giving me foul looks the other day and I had pretend I
saw someone down the street and made a run for it before they could
say anything.

Their all fascist police here. Literally all voting for a fascist
Italy. And they act like it to. Their faces are scoulling. They wear
these Nazi costumes with tall boots and millitary hats... They smell
of hate and patheticness. Like they are making up for having small
dicks by being total cunts. fuck em.

They keep driving past the window, their sirens going off, at top
speeds. They probably arent up to anything, they just likely want to
feel important. Italy is a really imature country. Theres a mentality
here thats so close to south east asia.

In one way its very personel. You can relate to many of he people on
things like family and shit like that. If a cop pulled me over id make
excuses for being to long, by talking about family, that I need to see
them for christmas, and its a possibility that they'd understand.

But they hate blacks, and different cultures... Pretty well, only if
theyre poor. Cunts.

On other news, the horse whisperer came the other day and had a chat
with my horse. I should be up there now. training, but im too hung over.

Romon, my horse, told me through the whisperer that I have to start
training in a more organic way using different techniques. I also have
to get longer ropes for when I'm training wim from behind because the
shorter ropes make him feel blocked in... like I'm to close up his
arse I guess. HAHAHA.

I watched fire works at the festa last night. They were soooo
beautiful! And loud! They bloomed like flowers and drooped into
sparkling trees. They banged and popped and whistled and wizzed in a
thousand different colors.

A lovely family friend had about 30 of us for dinner. Her young
daughter obviously has a crush on me, because she wouldnt leave me
alone all night and kept doing awkward things. It was really cute.
Shes a plump girl, though nice to behold. She's nineteen. She drove me
home and I could see she wanted to ask me in and I could have ended my
months of misserable celebasy right then, though I felt wrong about it.

In italy, especialy amoungst her circles, people are fucking shallow!
Just because shes a lovely girl, doesnt mean she'd get any. Shes too
plump... Though in normal circumstances I'd fuck her and so would most
of my social circles in Australia. As they'd see her for the beauty
she is.

Thats all made her the innocent type. And not wanting to be her
boyfriend would fuck her up. And shes way to close to all my folks
friends.... nah, I can hold out. Wich was good to know.

I tried to screw my sister in laws sister the other day... She was
flirting with me so hard and shes fucking sexy! Ive been holding off
for years now, but not having sex in so long is turning me a little
stupid and so I went for it. We began an "inocent" game of tickling
wich got closer and closer and envolved more and more skin, till I was
on top of her and her all wrapped up in my arms! Oh man! She's so
delicate and sensual. She moved like a snake in my arms. But when I
went in for the kiss she bailed and laughed at me!!!! Game playing
bitch... Just wanted to see me squirm I guess.

I never had this problem with sex once. I was always getting laid.
Maybe its just not my time at the moment. I did tell myself I want to
wait for the right one. I told myself I want to organise my life and
get it on the right track before falling for the next big heart
opener. I guess I just aint that allegable at the moment. I aint so
proud of where I am as I'd like to be.

I need to work harder and earn some more self respect. Then I'll have
women after me again. Thats when I have to remember to fall for the
right girl on not just any fluzey with a hot arse.

I want a girl who's sexy! Artistic! Open to new ideas! Free! ANd above
all, she has to love me! PASSIONATELY! In fact she has to be
passionate about life!

I love you future woman of mine. Just you wait, our lives will be so
beautiful and happy. I promise!




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