Skeleton girl

Skin and bones
2010-12-05 09:47:27 (UTC)

Today...

Today was the worst day, ya Im only 12 going on 13 but still, I
hate my life, and I hate me, I hate the way I look, and i hate when
Im naked, like every guy I know says im hot and stuff, but I dont
think I am, and I get girls all ways giving me ditry looks and
talking crap about me, nice huh? Well I just think I look like a a
disgusting pig, and a slut, and more, but Im going on a fast
tomorrow well today, cuz Its 1:35AM but I think my mom Is sending me
off to a eating disorder clinic cuz I geuss Im ana, so ya, but Im
happy Im going down fast, I was 130 when I frist statred this not
eating thing and now, Im 110!! Im so happy but, at the same time, I
still think I look like a size 7 but Im a size 5 now so I dont know
whats going on? but people say I look more thin almost everyday, so
mabey I do look smaller, well I dont know I geuss I will never know,
oh oh I went to the doctors like 4 days ago and this Is so nice to
here she said I might die, now Is that like the best thing to here
from a doctor? Am I right or am I right? Ya I know shuch shit to
here and oh my fucking god!! I have a boyfriend now but I like this
other guy and the other guy I might see today and we might do
something that might hurt my boyfriend so I dont know now what to
do? :/ wich Is realy bad and I feel so hugrey right now but I cant
eat wow Its graling realy, realy loud right now god! this sucks I
wish I was normal and could just eat with out haveing to go throw It
up or go work out for 3 hours long!! :( I wich I could just eat
normal, I wish I did not go on fasts, I wish I did not want to be 85
pounds, I wish I could feel pretty for just once, just once, and It
would make my day, and I wish I could just go to sleep and not have
to stay up all night wanting to know how much I will way when I get
up but I geuss Its just me and I geuss I will eat normal when Im 85
pounds or who knows mabey when Im 50 pounds? I geuss Im just never
going to stop, well who knows.




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