Kenz22

My Life and Times
2010-11-25 10:20:07 (UTC)

Day 1: 11/25/10

Dear Journal,
Sooooooo...this is pretty cool writing in my own personal journal (YOU)...happy
that its free too lol...but anywayss...So today is THANKSGIVING woooooo!!! not really
lol...for some reason I have lost all interest in this holiday thing, like I dont mind
hanging with my family and stuff but for me it has gotten pretty old lol...onto life,
well my academic life is pretty good! getting decent grades I guess..like most of my
classes except philosophy, kinda annoying not gonna lie..and sports hmmmm going
good soccer was not the best start but it got WAYY better by the end of the year
and had an awkward "Evaluation" with my coach, and it wasnt even about soccer
lol..it was about my sexuality and how on my fb it has that I am in a complicated
relationship with Brandon, and then he went on to talk about his gay friends and
stuff...Im jus sitting there like wuuuu??? I thot this was supposed to be about soccer
but he then explained that during season he wants results but after he wants to
know wuts going on in our personal lives..guess thats finee if he wants to do
that..but I think he is a wayy better person as a friend thn he is as a coach but thats
just my opinion...well onto the the next chapter in my life, I tried hitting it off with
this one girl Danyelle so cute funny, and a good dancer, but she is leaving at the
end of semester so that was a fail lol...but now I'm exploring a new chapter in my
life and his name is Jason Smith :)))))))..my australian spunksta lol...funny, adorable,
fit, just all around amazing..and we like alot of the same things and it is great! I
hope in the future we actually start to want a relationship..cuz he said I passed his
lil screening test lol...but since he is a flight attendant I would see him at least once
a week once his planes are fixed and that to me would be GRRREAT! Im sooooo
excited to see what would happen with this one, Im tired of all the BS relationships
that I have had in the past and I think this one could be EPIC! but not too mention
he is 27 so he is a lil more mature in the relationship department than the people I
have gone out with. But like we have been talking frequently these last few
dayys..and for some reason I cnt stop thinking bout him and I love this feeling but
hate that he is sooooo far awayy but "good things come to those who wait" and I am
willing to wait for him. It's hard to find someone who doesnt just want sex and wen
you find that one rare diamond you never let it goo..and I dont plan on letting this
one go. But really I feel like I stalk him to the point where he is gonna get annoyed
of me...idk like I wanna show that I can be that caring boifriend..so I sayy like let me
know when you get there so I know your safe, but then wen he puts a status and I
comment maybe he is like wtf this kid needs to stop...IDK and its frustrating cuz
wut if he likes that and thn I stop and he doesnt think I give a shit anymore or
wut...but he posted a picture and a status...I comment on the status and
nothing...but this other guyy comments on the picture and gets a response like wtf
does he not like me anymoree...did I say something wrong am I too "up in his face"
or maybee I'm overthinking it too much AHH i jus dont know and it is so frustrating
that Im gonna throw myself out the window lol..but w/e happens..happens jus gotta
deal with it..I wish I knew wut exactlyy wut he wanted so I would look and sound
like a complete retard lol..but anyways maybe I should get some rest HA! ok ttyl
Love,
Kenz22




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