hikari nikku
2010-11-11 17:34:29 (UTC)

Day 1: Reality is Fiction

okay, so it's been awhile since I've taken the time to write in here.
It's not that I haven't felt the need to vent, cause I have..
Especially last night, last night wasn't a good night. Two of my
closest friends came over, but even then I couldn't really talk. Does
any of this have to do with aggression, should I be more forceful when
it comes to talking trying to vent. To be honest, I don't know my mind
just went blank. hmmm, oh right, okay so yea. Whenever I try and talk
about a problem I'm having, or even talk at all, when someone
interrupts me I kind of take it has "okay, your turn to to talk, what
I have to say isn't that important anyway." If I were to say something
back to them, wouldn't that be rude... guess you could say what they
were doing was rude, but still... two wrongs don't make a right,
correct? <-- gosh... that sounds dumb. oh well, I'm going to make this
a habit I think, maybe it'll help me let out small portions to my
emotions daily, better way to vent in my opinion but who knows I'm not
a genius. Than again, you don't need to be a genius to figure out what
is wrong with yourself, and how to fix it.. you just have to be in
tune with your mind and your surroundings. I'm currently at my
library, didn't feel like eating anything so I thought I'd head
straight for the library, get a few things done keeps my day
productive. Joey's here too. He's my best friends fiance, they're
adorable together.. very happy for them to be honest with you,
jealous????? no. I've got my own problems to worry about, as long as
they're happy together than I'm happy for them. It's a good up lifter.
Typing here is annoying, the library is so quiet and now.. blah.. it's
it seem like you're the loudest person in the room.. but hey I'm off..
got a lot to do.. Ciao <3

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