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Diary of a mad man
2010-11-11 07:44:42 (UTC)

Diary of a madman 2

When I moved to the area I now live in it was to try to forget the past but how could I? The evil lived within me. The girl I met was a little younger than me we were both virgins & although we were together for 7yrs we hated each other at the end. I cheated on her god knows how many times with other women. I always said that I would never live my life the way my father had lived his yet I have done exactly what he did. I met my wife through the place we both worked & moved in with her. She is 13yrs older than me. At first things were great but as you can imagine the evil side of me returned. I have had two affairs which she knows about. I have treated her like shit which she never deserved. I also have a caution for common assault because one occasion I hit her. Something I deeply regret. My wife fell pregnant at the age of 41 & we now have a daughter who is now 11yrs old. At the beginning of this year I was sacked from my job because I flled in my timesheets wrongly & they. Thought I was fiddling my time but they were wrong. I have since been diagnosed with Anxiety, Depression & Memory loss if I do not write everything down I cannot remember where I was from one day to the next. I am now on medication called Sertraline which is an antidepressant but it does help to control the evil side of me. I am due to see a phsyciatrist on the 16th of December & to be quite honest I'm looking forward to it. I'm too tired to fight the evil within me now & I just want all the shit & bad memories & the evil side of me destroyed forever. I want to be able to live a normal life like everyone else.




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