HiddenBehindASmile

Hidden behind a smile
2010-10-20 23:21:09 (UTC)

Hidden Behind a smile.

Today, was one of those days that wasn't good, but wasn't
bad either.
Went to class. ( i know, surprising.) Usually, i skip. But,
today i
was trying to avoid people, well, a person. 2 days before
she called
me telling me she was going to kill herself. I tried talking
her out
of it, but apparently the girl shes in love with told her
not to call
her anymore, and the two other girls who were harassing, and
bullying
her, got to her. I called her again every time she hung up
on me, and
she told me that she had taken 31 pain pills. When she
completely
stopped answering my calls, (this was after talking to her and
hearingher shortness of breath, and her shooken, pain
sounding voice.)
I called my other friend. My bestfriend. Her name is Breann.
I told
her all about it and she told me i should call someone. But
my mom had
left, and i didnt know anyone elses number. So i went on
facebook and
messaged her sister. I was freaking out the whole night, and
i had no
idea what to do. The next day i didnt see her at school, and it
freaked me out even more. I walked the halls like a zombie.
After
school, i couldnt take it anymore so i called her. And
guess what??
She sounded FINE! I asked her if she was okay and she told
me she
would call me back in a sec. so i waited. When she called me
back she
telled at me. "YOU TOLD MY SISTER?!" I was like "yeah..."
"Why Would
you do that??!! Now i have to tell them im gay!! Then ill
get kicked
out, and have no where to live!!" I was getting pissed. I
mean, here i
was trying to be a good friend and she was yelling at me!!
"What the
fuck was i supposed to do DIANA! I was worried sick!! I
didnt know
what to do." "Im mad at you, Cinnamon." "Shut up!! I told
them you
were sad over a guy, not a girl. And what else was i
supposed to do??"
She was crying by now. I realized that it wasnt a good idea,
so i
puked most of the pills up. Im fine, and you had no reason
to worry."
Now i was beyond pissed. I had no reason to worry???! I said
in a
cold, harsh, voice "Im sorry diana, im grounded from the
phone. Bye"
WHAT A BITCH!! Her sister told me that what diana said to me
wasnt
right. and that she would talk to her for me. But i dont
think i give
a shit. Diana is what people call her. An Attention whore,
and a fake.
So ive been avoiding her since. Ignoring her calls, and
avoiding her
in the halls. And you know what?If feels good to be away
from all of
her drama. Oh! And guess what??! I was talking to Michael
yesterday,
(my ex boyfriend) We broke up becasue long distance wasnt
working out.
Hes amazing...and i still love him and its been 4 months. But im
moving bacj to my dads soon, (where he lives by) And we're
going to be
together again. But this is what he said on the phone
yesterday: Me:
Brb. Him: Nooo ))):. Me: Sorry, back! I hd to return some
books to the
library. Him: You cant read!! xD Me; Can too!! Him: Prove
it! Read me
a story! Me: How?? We arnt talking on the phone! And what
story?? Him:
The story where Michael falls in love with Cinnamon and they
live in a
big castle made out Cinnamon rolls. (Hence, my name) God, i
love this guy, well i think i do., Do you love someone if no
matter how hard you try you cant get over them, or when you
are with someone else that guy is still the one who invades
your thoughts? Michael... We've been through some real shit
havnt we? Hes 3 years older than me but never pressures me
about sex.. Thats what i love about him. And our first
kiss... :D I know ill never forget it. I LOVE YOU MICHAEL
TIMOTHY CLEETON! Forever and always <3




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