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Journal of a Jedi Padawan
2010-10-10 21:36:34 (UTC)

Someone Is My Side

"Well, Alix, you know I'm an old school Jedi like Jaiden, but this
time, I don't agree with her. I know where she is coming from but you
have an attachment with R9. as hes your droid... so whats the
difference," he asked me.
"I don't know. I guess its okay to like a droid but not a munyip!"
I shrugged. "I don't agree with her and I don't know how she thinks."
"Alix to be honest, it isn't any different. Its still an
attachment, if he gets destroyed you will be upset. I think that
having Sylis may actually help you grow up because you have to be
responsible for her. And with the new Jedi Order, if Master Skywalker
can marry and have a child, then its all different. You just have to
be able to learn to let go if something does happen," Lane explained.
"I agree with you, Lane. And I've been learning to let go since day
one. Remember, my master was killed, most of my friends, and I thought
many others were too. You know," I paused, turned, and smiled slightly
thinking about how Sylis just fell into my care, "Master Qui Gon Jinn
believed there was no such thing as coincidences. But I think Jaiden
is worried about what happens during dangerous missions, where will
she stay, and all of this. I've actually thought about it all, knowing
Jaiden would ask all that. So you say yes, she says no, which is right?"
"All I can say is you must do what you feel is right. Jaiden is a
Jedi from the old Order so she is right. But that Jedi Order no longer
exists. Its a new order now. I say we keep her."
I looked at Sylis' big brown eyes. "Your right. But to her it does.
I think she holds to the old Order's ways to keep it alive in her
veiw. Its almost a debate about which is better, the old or new Jedi
Order? Almost. I say we keep her too. I just hope Jaiden will come to
agree with me and forgive my decision. I know I'll be scolded for days
on end when she finds out though."
Sylis chirped happily, glided back to me, and purred happily. "You
hear that? You're staying with us, Sylis!" I giggled and petted Sylis
and she purred at Lane. "She must be thanking you. Thank you for
letting me, Lane," I gave him a thankful hug. We had become like
brother and sister. Holding hands and hugs were just a part of
comfort. And at this moment, joy. I pulled away and looked him in the
eyes again. "But you were right, I do need to be more serious and I'll
try to more often," I promised him.
"I do cling to the old Jedi Order too, but for me the old Order is
gone and we can never get it back. She will learn to accept the
decision, as long as you can prove that you are being more grown up,"
he looked at me sternly, but smiled at me and petted Sylis. "Well she
will be crossed with me too, but Jedi need to learn not to be to
condescending. Its what caused a lot of our problems," he explained.
"I can do that. And yes, she will be mad at you but I'm more likely
to get the worst of it. Your older and she has taught me a lot. She
knows how to lecture. And I don't understand, Lane. I thought Jedi are
supposed to be humble. How can they be humble if they are
condescending?" I still had much to learn, apparently.
"Jedi are humble but some times they have to be strict on
padawans." I kinda shrunk away from that fact. I knew it was true.
"You ask Starlor how I was with her. Its just how it happens when you
are teaching. But I've learned that being hard on a student is not the
best way to be."
"So I see. I'll have to ask her that sometime, because, with all
due respect, I couldn't see you as very strict. But Jaiden...." I
didn't want to offend Lane and see what he meant. But I had to be honest.
"Oh believe me, I was a hard task master. But I have mellowed a
lot. Hows Sylis? And are the droids on charge," he asked me.
"They still are, yes. Sylis well...." I nodded to my outstretched
arms. Sylis climbed all over my arms chattering excitingly. I moved my
arms to keep her going so she could pace and climb all she wanted.
"She's Sylis. I wonder what she is saying though," I mused chuckling.
"I can tell you have some." I nodded. I was lying. I could never see
him as strict. Not long ago he was upset with fear and crying. He
never seemed to me as a strict guy.
"Hey, little one, you need to calm down," he told Sylis chuckling
"Shes crazy. At least we can relax now... for a while until the things
get heavy," he added.
Either she didn't like to be told what to do, she hated calming
down, or she didn't like being called crazy. Sylis looked at Lane,
chirped, but then lowered her tail and ears and settled down and kept
looking away. I chuckled. "Now you've done it. I think shes mad at
you." Sylis cooed. "Sylis, don't hold a grudge." I smiled and shook my
head, she looked at me, lowered her tail even more, but glided to
Lane's shoulder and purred, forgiving him. "Good girl. Yeah, at least
for now." I knew I had to train Sylis not to be so.... I don't know.
One minute she is sad, then overly happy, then mad. Moody, I guess.
But I couldn't help but think of what is to come and when it would. "I
wish it would last."
"Good girl Sylis," Lane praised, petting her head. I was glad he
did that. It was only going to show her how to behave and maybe Jaiden
would be more open to it. "Where do these creatures come from," he
asked me. I didn't know much about munyips, but I knew some.
"Here I think. They are native to Endor and they usually live up in
the trees. They have little defense but gliding, their speed, and
their long tail they use to climb with. They are very friendly, as you
can see, and many Ewoks had them as pets and liked to interact with
them. There isn't much record of them though," I explained.
Well, I get to keep Sylis. For a while, we are all happy. And all
is fine.




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