cocoacola6

cocoa
2010-10-04 09:30:16 (UTC)

Somethings not right..

Why can't I just get over what people in the past have done and move
forward? I feel like a slut right now because all I want is to get
fucked and move on. I have a few guys who want relationships with me
and the idea scares me to death. Josh irritates me to the end of the
world. He's always been one of my best friends, but jesus christ
you're smothering ME!!!! And then Chris is so nice to me and we have
fun and stuff...but as soon as he asks me out I freeze and get
queasy... Wtf is my problem? I'm not that kind of person, but I feel
myself turning into that person.
I can't be with someone like Chris though... I think I saw good in him
because he quit doing bad shit... He said he did it for me because he
didn't want to bring it around me and Cameron. But then he goes off
and does it again....and THEN he gets all shady with me... I csn't
live through that life again... I wish he meant it when he quit.. I
don't want to be around him at all... and now I just feel
uncomfortable around his family....
Cameron keeps waking up crying :( I wish his teeth didn't hurt so bad!
He got 3 so fast! 2 top and 1 bottom. I love my lil buddha. :) He
means the whole entire world to me :) :)
Hailey and I had the MOST amazing broccoli, asparagus, potatoes, and
chicken (thanks ian, even though you won't see this). Then my lard
butt came home and had peanut butter, an "everything" bagel, and
chocolate milk.




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