Bloodflowers

Wincing The Night Away
2010-10-02 04:38:12 (UTC)

Don't Care

I don't even really want to write anything. I'm just insanely bored.
My medication had me knocked out practically all day and that was no
fun. I feel groggy and out of place. I haven't heard from my husband
in almost a week or longer. I was hoping to hear from him. Being a bit
crippled will put you a bit on the needy side. I usually wouldn't care
but its been two months since I had a conversation with someone I knew
in person. Kind of makes you feel alone in the world. And with my knee
being messed up, I'm trapped in my house, and the last real
conversation I had with someone in person was with the doctor. So,
yeah, I'm a little bitter. Being alone all the time is freakin'
annoying. Especially when I know all my family and friends are far
away. Makes me want to jump on a plane and leave everything here
behind. Husband doesn't really care about me anyways. He cheats and
lies enough. So, it wouldn't be a hard transition to just move on.
I've sort of already done that. Letting go of how I feel for him a
little bit everyday. I just miss my family. Miss my friends. Miss
being able to talk to someone or go somewhere with someone. It just
gets old. I'm tired of it.




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