fleuret13

everyday encounter
2010-09-20 06:10:26 (UTC)

2nd STRIKES!

2nd strike!September 20,2010...this the day when my heart
broke again..sometimes im always asked myself..do i deserve
to be hurt like this?all i know was loving you arvin,i felt
so much pain right now..and i dont know what to do..if there
is someone who can save me..please be here:(gusto kong
magalit sa kanya kasi pakiramdam ko niloko nya
ako..naglalaro sa isip ko kung bakit at kainlangan nyang
magsinungaling sa akin ng ganun..iniisip ko kaya hindi nya
sinabi dahil sa may ka meet sya doon.iniisip ko,nghahanap pa
rin sya ng iba tulad ng sabi nila mama sa akin.at iniisip ko
na hindi nya masabi sa aking may iba na sya dahil ayaw nyang
isipin kong totoo lahat ng iniisip ko simula pa lang.ang
hirap naman.
bakit ganun?sobrang nasasaktan ako ngayon.ang sakit
sakit..although this is not the first time i felt this..but
still i cant take it..so much pain that crash my heart...i
can't breath..i need oxygen:(
how shall i start my life again?sana hindi na lang
sya dumating sa buhay ko..i already survive at my first
heart broken...and then..another heart broken again..
did i do something wrong?because i always hurt
like this way..:(
I'm also thinking in my cousin's proposal to
me..you know what?i cant take it that kind of job..pero gulo
ako..ganito ako pag nasasaktan..gulong gulo..natatakot akong
makagawa ng desisyon na bka pagsisihan ko..i need god to
lead me the way..please god dont let me to lure in this kind
of situation:(..ang gusto ko..makalayo at makalimot..i know
na hindi ito ganun kadali..but im not strong..i may look
like one..but i'm not..i need someone na iga guide ako at
sasamahan ako hanggang sa makalimot ako..i need
support:(.but you know what?maybe im a BIG FOOL..kxe im
still hoping pa rin that he really loves me..if he really
mean what he told me that he dont want me to lose..then
prove that to me..i ask god's sign..if he dont did it..it's
time for me to let go of the things that cause me so much
pain..and that's the time i need to accept my cousin's
proposal..


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