Another guy

Nothing Creative
2010-09-03 03:21:56 (UTC)

more thoughts ... again

3rd entry. so soon but it feels good to get everything of my
chest.
with having so many dreams lately, it feels good cause it
helps me think, visualise it all. come up with solutions or
realise something i didnt think it was.
ive had a few lucid dreams lately (if thats what you call
them). were in my dreams ive realised it was a dream and
conciously altered the outcome in it, even though instantly
afterwards i forget im in a dream.
in one i worried i didnt have enough money to by some fish
food, and a small fish house for a fishtank and the total
came up to £70 ish. i got in a panic and then realised it
was a dream and then just walked away, then it all changed.
another were it was like watching a dream id already had
about the sea, and for an instant a realised it was a dream,
then it all changed.
its just strange, and i do have some strange dreams, but its
just good to dream, to escape reality.

something different.

my best mate. i thought i was in love with her, im not so
sure now cus she really doesnt make it easy. we've known
each other for a few good years and we are best mates. i
dont expect a love conffession and for anything to happen
cus its not the movies. but its sometimes like im a purse
just to hold her stuff, one set off rules her others and a
different set for her. i offered to help her with something
the other day that had been getting her down for a while,
and when she sed no it was like she spat in my face, not the
part of saying no, but the way it was said.
i think she sees it as its mostly about her, its not the
right words, but no one knows remotely whats she's going
through.
and to her it is, she'l joke about other people and things
that may mean somthing to them and not care, but when its
turned on her... you might wanna take cover. but even then
its not the point

im seeing all her faults for the first time... and i dunno.
i love her, and im not gonna turn my back on her... its
jsut annoying... and im fed up




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