KC DarkFire

FrEaK oN a LeAsH
2010-08-28 19:37:49 (UTC)

Back to school, but still having problems

So I'm done with my first week of school, classes are fine and
all, still have the prepaid bull shit phone, still might end
up with a prepaid phone from a different company. I'm driving
puppy into annoyance with my up and down mood-- first I'm
happy, then I'm depressed, I was mad for a time too. Maybe I'm
just totally mental now, maybe I'm just upset with life again.
Who gives a fuck, right??

Its not like life is going to get better and easier what ever
the mood I'm in so why should I care?

Maybe I should just get a fucking job and pay for my own bull
shit phone and save everyone else the trouble. If I could find
a fucking job. Hell the only reason this came up is because
she hasn't got the phones turned back on. The third is next
week so I guess I'll see what happens then. I'm already angry
at her for other things, maybe after this I'll finally get the
nerve to let everyone connected to the two of us know how
things are from my viewpoint.

Doesn't matter though? She'll still be a bitch, I'll still be
manic depressive with a violent streak towards myself. I'll
still spend an hour in the darkness of the closet here in my
dorm. My family will still be damaged.

I guess I don't really care anymore at this point.

I really am getting useless I guess.




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