DementedGeek

Ravings of a Psychic Teen
2010-08-28 02:19:40 (UTC)

Rejection.

I tried. I failed. I really had a good feeling about this one too...I'm a little
lost as to where to go now. I really thought I had a shot, and I really have
no idea where to go next. I'm not the kind of guy that gets a lot of dates,
and I really didn't have an eye out for anyone but her...not anyone I have
a chance with anyway. I'm starting to wonder if leaving Danielle behind
was really the right thing to do. Maybe it was long distance but at least I
had someone. Someone to tell me they love me, and actually be happy to
talk to me... But it doesn't matter anyway. She already has a new guy and
she's happier with him than she ever was with me. Seems to be the story
of my life, I'm miserable and alone while everyone else is happy. Maybe
I'm just meant to be alone. Maybe I'm destined to be the quiet sad little
kid that sits in the shadows and watches everyone else live a happy life. I
know what everyone would say, "you're only in high school, you've got the
rest of your life." but at this rate I'm not going anywhere fast, maybe even
backwards. Every turn I take either brings me to a heartbreak or a long
road leading to heartbreak. The sad thing is I'm just numb to it now. I don't
even feel pain anymore, not even physically most of the time. I thought
things were changing for me. I thought maybe I might actually be heading
for something better. Turns out I'm still just a scared little kid with creepy
powers. I'm starting to question why I even bother get up in the morning...




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