MissNaivex

Breaking Free
2010-08-24 21:46:02 (UTC)

And I'm wasting away, away from you 3 xx

24th August 2010 3

Diary,
I'm positivley overjoyed with my GCSEs that i recieved
today. By most standards they were not amasing - granted.
But for me,i couldn't of been happier. I passed 9!!
However, some issues just don't seem to escape me. I've been
battling with eating issues (a disorder?) and self esteem
issues for a long time, since before the beginning of high
school, although it's hard to gauge when as my memory is
very very patchy (hence my decision for this diary) Anyways,
i didn't make my usual effort today on my appearence
(flattering clothes, fake eyelashes, make-up, extensions) i
quite simply threw on a hoodie, and some black eyeliner,
scarecly any at all believing i wouldn't be alone in this
lack of effort, well how wrong was i. All the skinny,
made-up girls looked amazing, i felt almost like i was back
at school, looking awful, starving, purging, binging, ugly,
despite all my efforts - bottom of the pack, clearly i care
too much about my apperance, i should've been more worried
about my results for god sake! So overall, results day was
very nerveracking, i arrived with one of my closest friend
Jade to the school and were quite annoyed to discover that
we had to wait half hour for the results, even though they
told us to be their at 10! So we waited on the steps with
the rest of the girls, and soon were joined with Priyna,
Jess and Kirsty, all friends from school.(Kirsty and Priyna
i'm not that close too, but Jess is actually my best friend
currently). Eventually they said we could have our results
and we all rushed into the sports hall, like tramps to a 10
pound note. I took my enevlope from my form tutor, nerves
racing through my body. Me, Jess and Jade went outside,
where it was quiet to open our results. We all did excently!
My mum was really proud of me, i'm going to college :DDD
So, i travelled home and decided to go and see my friends in
Fassnidge Park (from now on shortened to Fass). Fass is a
place where i regularly hang out and i really love it there
:) It was a reasonably good day. I had a conversation and
catch up with Leah.
Overall, it's been a great day, i'll catch up tommorow
ByeBye
xoxo




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