ghetto fabulous

Life of ghetto fabulous
2010-08-12 21:40:11 (UTC)

Love and the emotions behind love.

I'm 25 years old and I feel like I've been through
alot
when it comes to love and relationships. My heart right
now is feeling a pain it never felt before. I've only
been
in 2 real relationships in my entire life. One came with a
tattoo thats still on my arm and the other comes with the
pain I'm going through now. There's not much to say
about
my first love cause when we were together, we never had
sex, never really hung out, barely seen each other except
in school, and all we did physically was huge and kiss. So
some might now ask why did I get her name on my forearm?
That was my first love and I thought she was the one. To
top it off, she left me for a female after 4 months of
dating and didn't tell me either. I found out when I
found
a picture of them together. We all do stupid things
sometimes and we learn from it. Now the 1 that I cried
plenty of times for and still do has my heart. I broke up
with her twice cause of the problems we was going through
and I felt it was too much to deal with. But the second
time, I just wanted to try to figure the problems out and
see if there was still love left and if I felt we can work
everything out. I didn't leave her to have sex with
someone else so I wouldn't have to cheat to do so. I
didn't leave her to see what else was out there in the
world either. I guess I look a little too long getting my
mind in order cause she's now takin and it kills me to
know that if he does right I might not ever have her
again. Its so bad that I really can't stay in the house
by
myself cause I'll start to think about everything and
tears eventually start to run down my face. I've even
had
girls try to get with me from time to time. Different ages
and races, but I never tried to be bothered with none of
them cause I knew exactly what I wanted and it was and
still is my last love Chakhya Wanda Lee. Well I did talk
to 2 females but that was because they kept trying and I
got tired of playing cat and mouse. So I gave in. But it
didn't go anywhere cause like I said, I know what it is
I
want and it's Chakhya Wanda Lee. We do have each others
number
again and we talk from time to time and she works up the
street from where I live. So I haven't lost complete
contact with her, but still the thought of her not being
mines hurts like hell. Funny thing is she never thought
I'd feel this way and I don't thing she knows I feel
this
way this bad. I'm actually crying while I type this,
but
crying is healing, so let the tears fall. She's takin
right now, but 1 day I'll be a criminal because I plan
on
pleading guilty to stealing her back. ps, Love my baby
Chakhya Lee




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