foreverandever

Dear Love,
2010-08-08 02:58:49 (UTC)

Amazing much?

I told him everything last night.
My most deepest darkest secret I let it out.
He was the first to know. He said "damn i don't know what
to say." In reality it didn't matter. The only thing that
mattered was that I got it of my chest. I don't know what
is going to happen after this, I don't know how things will
change. Things are going to change, I hope for the best. I
am not sure of what to do with myself. I have issues, I
have problems, I am slowly and painfully dying inside.
______When he calls, I feel so alive, so well. I feel happy
I am no longer depressed, nothing matters, everything is
well. My heart is complete and all of the little pieces
that my soul had become come together, as if he was my
glue. He says "I wish I was there to make it better," but I
know that is not even near happening. Still my heart feels
so perfect. I even feel normal for a second. Is this
healthy? I think not but i like to not dwell on it. I
quickly throw it to the back of my mind. He's only present
when we are happy with each other which is only when I hear
his voice. He brings happiness to my life. He is my little
sunshine. Sounds gay, it should be the other way around but
he is not much of that romantic type.




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