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Jimmy Sessom
2010-07-27 16:08:38 (UTC)

July 27, 2010 12 PM

I just had to write this down. After some communication things
with Dad seem to be working themselves out. I realize that my
feelings for him are bigger than I thought as are his. I
really enjoy being with this guy. He is warm, caring,
considerate and I don't have much of a worry in the world.
There is one worry I have and I will have to get use to it if
I want to be with this man. He is negative and I am poz. It
wears on my mind when we mess around. I have a weird allergy.
I am allergic to most latex and that is the main reason I have
barebacked in my life. I know I take my life into my hands
every time I do. I fully accept the consequences of my
actions. The biggest fear I have is that I will be the reason
he becomes poz and that is a guilt I don't think I can live
with.

I have come to the decision that I will also get back into
DJing. I miss the music and the feeling I get when I am
spinning. I also am going to get back into flagging and maybe
learn disco fans as well as ask one of my best friends, John
T, to teach me fire spinning. I have seem him do it and he is
amazing.

I really have decided to become who I was before the drugs
took over my life. Music and flag spinning were my natural
highs and I should get back to what makes me happy.

Well that is all I have for now. I will post again later
before bed.




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