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Boys_R_Dumb
2010-07-25 10:43:54 (UTC)

So I was right...

I waited all night for Mike to come around. I sent him a
message at 2am in the morning asking him when he was
coming. He didn't reply. So I waited half an hour before
telling him I was going to bed. Then he finally replies
and tells me he's on MSN. I get up and go on. He says the
usual Hey, How are you? bullshit and then tells me he's
going to bed. After he promised he would come around and
spend the rest of the night/morning with me. I told him no
and to stay online for a little bit, he gets pissy and
says no he's going to bed. We start arguing and I ask him
if anything happened tonight (last-night) and he says no
he's just tired (haven't we all heard that excuse before).
I ask him if I can call him then he actually says yes so I
do and he says hello and hangs up. I asked him why he
ended so quickly he says 'I couldn't hear you' (maybe
because I didn't get a chance to say hello!). I call back
and he says I love you a few times. Sounded as though he
didn't mean it. I asked him if he wanted to be with me and
he says I don't know. He doesn't fucking know. Because
apparently I blame him for everything that goes wrong in
my life. So I tell him I will try to be better and
bullshit. He goes to bed.

Started my birthday laying in bed crying. Finished it
laying in bed crying. What a fantastic day. I wanted to
talk to Mark but we had an argument over bullshit that
night too. I was alone and upset so I did the stupid thing
and text my ex. At first he was nice and kind but it
wasn't long before he was calling me a whore.

I just have this horrible feeling he is sleeping with
someone else. I've felt that way for like two months. I
just don't know. He says he isn't or hasn't. This morning
he never replied to my texts until after 2pm. Said he was
going to the movies with some friends from last night. Now
he hasn't replied to my texts for 5 or so hours. It's not
like him. I don't know what's going on with him. It wasn't
like him to not come over last night too.

Maybe it's just best to end things? Pretty sure I screwed
up any relationship I had with Mark. I'm one of those
stupid bitches who need a boy to make them happy. I act
like I don't but the truth is I do. I hate it.

I hate males.

The only good thing about being completely ignored by
everyone today was I finished off my modern history work
for the rest of the year. Now all I need to do is write
two debates on Leon Trotsky and I'm done. Schweeeet.

Still being completely ignored by Michael. He had the
entire weekend off and I don't see him once. Perfect.

**Edit**

So he texts me... tells me he's still at the movies...
Didn't think they went that long... said I love you baby
boy... All he says back is I love you... He only says I
love you when he's pissed off at me. Great. So now when he
comes we're going to fight...




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