libbbs

the truth
2010-07-21 13:28:10 (UTC)

its not the same

itsn't it always when something is so amazing, then
something feels like its coming to destroy it?
stress, worry, understanding, responsibilty... these all
come under the reason why i break down lately, with no
reason for it to come, im happy...so why do i feel like im
digging myself a hole. its about being strong and learning
to cope with everything that comes along in life.. and its
that, that i need to learn, there will be tears and
laughter but when worst comes to worst everyone has that
one person that means the world to them, that they would do
anything just to be able to see them for even an hour...
well i have a person like that and Everything was amazing-
ive never been so happy with one person in my life, nothing
will change how things are with us both, nothing can kill
how much i love him, and ive reaslised its not some average
lad that tells you he's different and he does love you-
then you find out its lies!. This isnt the person ive got,
he does so much for me and he takes care of me, i feel safe
with him, how i feel for him is real, never will it change,
weve been through too much for anything to change it. but
its when he leaves that i feel all the pressure back, the
world on my shoulders as they say... its so strange, the
minute he leaves it piles ontop of me... i end up missing
him so much its crazy, just needing one of his hugs that
feels like everything's fixed, that nothing matters when
he's around. that im safe. and if the day comes that all of
this dissapears something so incredibly horrible to imagen
that happening. it would completely distroy me... like you
couldnt imagen, even the thought puts me to tears. but
right now im strong. im strong when he's around and his
reasurance makes everything feel better, i have that, and
no one knows how much i appreciate it. appreciate him. and
life.




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