roussie

SmallBawls
2010-07-19 08:55:12 (UTC)

Sam 4

"Okay, here we are. Where do you want to go sit?"

"See that really big tree?The Weeping Willow wayyyyyy over
there on your left?If that's okay with you..."

"Haha, well that was specific.Let's go."

We walk in the dark closest enough to where I could touch
her tanned skin if I wanted to, but far enough to where
our bodies won't accidentally brush.

She walks a little faster then I do and plops herself down
under the old familier tree as soon as we get there.
Completely comfortable with where she is.
We sit on the hard worn ground that has become a place of
rest for many a long the years.

"So," I say "would you like to play the question game?"

"Sure, i'll go first if you want."

She moves to where she is on her stomach, chin propped up
on her dainty hands.

"That would be great.I'm not sure what I want to ask yet
anyway."

"Okay, well... Do you and your family fight a lot?"

"Um,well, my mom and I, we don't. She generally is too
busy working to make sure we have enough to pay the bills
and stuff,"

"And your dad?"

She seems so interested.
So I go on.

"Well..my dad and I don't exactly see eye to eye.
I used to think he was great, when I was younger, but as
the years went on, I saw who he really was and that's just
not the kind of person I really wish to share the same DNA
with.Ya know?"

"Hmm...What makes him so terrible?"

I don't know what it was, but for some reason, I trusted
her, and I just let some things spill out.

"Well, my dad is gone almost all of the time.I see him
every few months for about a day or two, and then he goes
back to traveling with his big corperate office. He um, he
cheats on my mom. He tells my mom, that's how I know.
And that's not even what sucks. What sucks is that if she
crys, or gets mad...he hits her. He has never hit her in
the face, but he sure does bust her up.
She misses a lot of work so that no one sees the marks and
gets suspicous."

"Omg,I am so sorry...."

Neither of us talk.
Not for atleast a minute.
Then Charliee breaks the silence in a low quiet voice.

"Why doesn't your mom just leave him?"

"Because no matter what I tell her, she always says he
will change. That one day he will go back to the man she
married, the man she fell in love with.That right now he's
stressed from work and she makes him mad so it's not his
fault that he hits her."

"That's horrible.There is no reason for him to hit her."

"Yeah I know.I think she knows that too. But she doesn't
want me thinking my dad's an abusive drunk and she doesn't
want to believe it either.So she lives day in and day out
in her fantasy world."

"Why...why did you tell me all of this?"

"I don't know. I just feel comfortable with you. I'm sorry
for unloading all of this on you.Not much of a question
game, hah."

"It makes me happy that you felt comfortable enough to
share this with me."

"Well,go ahead,ask me something if you'd like."

"Well...since tonight is already pretty out of whack for
me, I won't change that pattern, will you lay down next to
me and tell me why you came tonight?"

She doesn't say a word.
She just moves over and lays down next to me.
If I were to scoot over just a little bit, we'd be
touching.

"I really like you Sam. You spark an interest in me like
no one ever has before. Other girls have just been that,
other girls.But not you.You actually make me think. You
drive me crazy in fact. I'm always questioning myself
around you.Wondering if I look stupid or am doing the
right thing.I've never felt like this before.I'm always
the one who people are going crazy for.Never the other way
around.But with you I feel so vulnerable.But one thing is
for sure, I feel very safe."

"Wow."

I see her uncomfortably inch away a little bit.
I can tell I hurt her feelings.
I prop up on the arm facing her so that i'm on my side and
I look her straight in the eye.

"Charliee, you are the most intriguing girl I have ever
met. I really like you. Don't think you don't drive me
crazy all the time just because I don't act like it."

I see her smile as I say this and she props up on her side
that faces me and it looks like she is considering kissing
me. I sit up an say it's late and should probably be
getting her back home before her parents wake up and call
the cops or something.
She looks nervous and let's me help her up.
I knew she was kind of hurt that I blew off the moment
like that.But, I just didn't want to yet.
The moment wasn't right.


I take her home and walk her to the door.
No goodnight kiss,well goodmorning kiss, but I give her a
really long, close hug.
She rests her head on my chest and it feels so amazing
that I don't want to let her go.
Eventually I do and I tell her goodnight.

I wait until she is inside before I leave and I check my
phone.Almost six A.M.!
My parents will be up soon.
I speed home and quietly run inside and jump into bed.
Whew ,not caught.





Ad: