webal_x

Knowing
2010-07-19 03:18:47 (UTC)

Day 1

My first Diary entry ever. My momma thought it would be a
good idea. "Mika it could help with your depression."
Deprresion you ask? Yup I'm one of those unfortunate
people to be diagnosed with it. I learnt when I was first
diagnosed with it that its actually quite a common thing
so dont judge if you ever meet someone with it. How knows,
you could be next. I also have a disease called
Endometriosis. Heard of it? No. Well its kinda hard to
explain, but pretty much its sevre bleeding from "down
there" thats really hard to control and is very very
painful. The doctor put me on the pill to stop it. it
worked for a while then stopped working. Then I was put on
the injection and that worked for about a month but that
stopped to and then I ended up in hopsital a few nights
ago. So apparently my next thing to try and get this under
control is surgery. Im deinatley not looking forward to
that.

Back to my Depression. Now people think that if you cut
your wrists and do shit like that youre an emo. Thats not
ttrue. Some people do it to take away that pain in their
mind. Im telling you know that physical pain gets rid of
any pain you might feel in your head. Now Im not saying to
you that if your sad cut your wrists im saying if you know
someone that does dont judge them for it, its a sign that
something is hurting them inside and that someone needs to
help them.
Now if your one of those people that do cut your wrrists
of anything like that, ive been there done that, yeah it
helps for a little bit and then when it stops im telling
you youre screwed. Before you get to the point of cutting
you should seriously ask for help. The people that can
help you arent going to judge you because they understand
that what your feeling is true.
IF YOUR DEPRESSED GET HELP! IT WORKS!

So what else to tell. Hmmm. Im not at school because of my
Endemetriosis. Its so bad I can barely walk. Hmmm what
else. Should I just give the low down on my self.

I smoke. Im 15. I have red hair kinda medium length. I
have a bofriend Boso, hes 16, 17 this year. We have been
going out for just over 7 months. Totally in love with
him. I live with my momma. My dad and momma are divorced.
My dads remarried and him and his new wife have a baby
girl together. Before my dad met my momma he had to girls
to another lady and before my momma met my dad she had a
boy and a girl to another man. I still go to school. Not
quite sure on what I want to do when I leave. Nurse maybe.
I love Glee lol. But who doesnt. Me and Boso Watch it
every week. Favourite subject is Cooking lol.

Well thats enough for now. Bosso should be her soon.
School just finished and hes coming round to get his bike
since he left it here this morning.

xx




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