lcdiary

Leyla
2010-07-06 21:41:39 (UTC)

6th July 2010

So what am I supposed to say? I do it every year. I don't
do a diary for months or even a year then I come back to
it but this time its got serious. I want to be able to
document life and its different tasks it throws at me but
I'm a quitter and I never keep anything up. I don't want
to be a quitter but that is why I am not a prefect, why
I'm terrible at Maths and why even in a subject I love,
English, I am getting B grades on my tests. Why does this
have to happen to me? Who am I? The smart one? The pretty
one? The bitchy one?

I want someone to tell me who I am. This soul searching
stuff is a load of bull. I can't figure out who I am. I
thought I knew what I wanted to be and what I wanted to do
in College but now I don't even know. I most likely can't
make it as a writer; something about your writing must
provoke people to feel a certain way and maybe I just
don't have that special skill. So, where do I possibly go
from here?

Maybe a summer love could help me feel better... Like that
would ever happen!




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