CaptainAkwardtotheruinnotrescue

Tales of a Highschool Nothing
2010-07-01 13:53:03 (UTC)

i need to know...

have you ever felt it.
like something was missing.
and you needed it to be there.
but it was deeper than that.
you thought you...
couldnt live without it.
and you didnt evenknow what it was.
it was burning in you.
it was killing you.
leaving deep scars on your heart.
and they never heal. not until you find it.
but... that's not easy. when you don't know exactly what
your looking for...
and tears want to run down your face.
warm. angry tears.
but the feeling doesn't let them.
it lets them ball up on the inside and wait until you
explode like a bomb. in front of everybody. when you don't
want them there.
i...i... i...
you can't even write how it feels. because. there are not
words to describe what's missing.
when you find out what this thing is,you feel like you
would do anything. the world will stop spining. and its
just you and it. together, at last. in love. in harmony.in
unison.
i think it would be like imprinting. that's why eclipse
triggered me to fall right back into it. i thought it was
gone. but it came back. and thats why i dearly need to
know what it is. i need to do all that's possible to make
it show itself. i need it to be there with me. or, i don't
know what's going to happen to me...i'll go to the end of
the earth to find it... until i stop breathing... maybe
even then.




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