Angellee

Lonestar
2010-06-15 22:27:47 (UTC)

Changes.

..........i moved in with stephane. Its the most scarely
thing i have ever had to know. I dont there is this wall
between me and him, he is absolutely amazing. He take
cares of me, and alittle over protective in a way, which
is totaly sweet, but i dont alot of trust in him to
actually rely on him.
.well, Alexandra my new former boss, she is just made soo
angry. I have a babysitter for her, and it was actually
going on soo well, untill her new boyfriends got friendly
with me. I saw it coming, i mean, this man is a total jack
ass, and taking advantage of her fear of solitude.......
and he was actually flirting with me. I was sort of caught
in a wierd web, i disliked him, and i really cared for
Alexandra... she is a sweet person, and that is why it
suprised me.
She screamed at me in the stret, like a mad woman. I dont
scream... i just cannot get myself to raise my voice. So i
walked away, went up to my appartment and cried....
When stephan passed by, my face was strained, my eyes
puffy....... he knew, and he packed my stuff and me and
took me to his place.
I wonder how my life would be alone, without him
As in how can you love someone soo much and yet fear him
soo much?
Love is not fear.....
Well, one thing i know is am happy, and there is no
contradiction to that.




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