MeMyselfAndI

The Life of a Messed-Up Skool Gyrl
2010-06-06 02:44:38 (UTC)

June 5, The first entry.

Ok, so, so far my life has been like a rollar coaster.
Lots of ups and downs, mainly downs, and I have tried to
keep up with it in a written diary, but I am so worried
that my legal guardians :( will find them and send me to
a mental home. Today was day 2 of my fight with my best
friend just because she saw me talking to someone that she
has hated eversince she told her mom about her boyfriend
even though she is still my friend. She is acting like a
bitch. Right now I want to slap her so hard, I mean who
puts their best friend in the middle of a fight, forcing
them to either choose her, or never talk to her again. How
messed up is that????
Today, the pain in my chest is almost unnoticable, and I
haven't really thought about death at all. That is
basically the story of my life. hahaha A whole lot of
pain, bad thoughts, fighting with everyone around me, but
then there are the times that almost make up for that. The
times where the pain doesn't bother me a lot, when I don't
hate my family, when I don't want to cry from the sheer
hopelessness of my messed up life. I know I need help but
what can I do???

Prologue - Ok, so I'm guessing that I lost a lot of
people in the entry above. I basically hate my life, have
no social life, have very few friends, and I want to die.
Make sense.




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