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Ciarra(stupid teenage life)
2010-06-05 00:27:06 (UTC)

shoot myself

so why do i still have feelings for nick?ii dont get it its
like i see him look at me in the halls i know other people
see it too but when i see him do it i cant decide weather i
want to be pissed at him for using me or want to cry for
hurting him i know hes with a new girl now but i dont think
she could love him the way i do and did sometimes i just
wonder where we would be at if things wouldnt have gone so
bad i know i still have parts of me that loves him even
though its been over a year i just dont know what to do
about it im with marcos now and when im with him things are
good really good i can see he loves me but sometimes i have
to question mysel if i feel the same but when u love someone
u shouldnt feel the need to question urself right? sometimes
i wonder if hes a great friends with benefits or if i do
love him i say i do i thought i did but do i ? i want to
spend my summer free to tlk flirt and hang out with whoever
i want but i dont want to give up something that could
portentialy be a good thing for me i want to go back to my
quiet shy self and feel liked again i want to lose weight
and be pretty i think im going to stop eating for a while
ill just drink a lot of water i honestly do not know wats
wrong with me ihave all this crap going through my head and
i dont know wat to do its like yeah u know how when urve
been to the docter and ask if uv thought about hurting
urself u alway say no right i mean whos seriously going to
say yes to that i mean damn of course ive thought about it
a lot but wat am i gonna do i just i want time to stop for a
little while but it will never happen i think im going to
try and go back to the way i was before skinny quiet
invisible girl




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