gorgeousivelisse

Much Afraid
2010-06-01 03:09:10 (UTC)

Is iT Bad to want to KILL yourself?

please tell me everyone wants to do it... really just think
about it....

My summer of Get-a-Fuckin job just start... i'm bein replace
by a lot of freakin high school kids ugh...... great...

i just found out yesterday that my 6 yr old chil is back in
the hospital with a lump on her something.... my best friend
wants to kill herself cause or everything and me.... well...

my dad has no job and cant pay bills which means we might be
movin in with a aunt which means im gonna get kicked out
cause they all hate me... cause they "THINK" im gay... lord
knows what would happen if i told them..... thats gonna be
fun when the time comes...

i been takin my meds and pittin them in the trash cause im
gettin fat and my head hurts cause of them but they just
give me more pills to make it feel better.... my side hurts
but i cant tell no one cause i hate check ups.. they always
tell me the same thing...... "pee in this cup, ill be right
with you."
i have wilson disease and my body is givin out on me... you
think with me knowin this i would stay my ass out the sun
and eat right... but fuck it right? live till you die....

hummmmmmmmm... wat else, my 18 yr brother finish high
school(YEA) Okay now stop.... he dont want to get a job or
go to school... he wants to make music... WHO THE FUCK IS
GONNA PAY FOR THAT SHIT!!.... and my 15 yr old brother wants
to be a baby makin man so lets see how this go.....

my grandma keeps callin me so i can move in with her back in
Oklahoma but i dont want to go back cause she lives right
down the road from the guy who raped me... but no one
cares.... like always.... you would think i would get sick
of smilin.. thank god i got a lot of teeth....

Knack is movin in with me at the end of june i think... she
is gonna change her mind again...

i got a girlfriend.... ugh yes i know, after i said i
wouldnt..... well i been with her for almost 7 days
now....(as in bein with her at her moms house).... i got to
see alot of crazy things but thats what you get from
Ricans/mexicans...... just sayin..... her mom and gma is
cool and they are tryin well talkin to me like we been
together for years, which is a good thing i guess... but
MOVING IN??? hummm...... and my Love... well i dont think
she wants me too..... so thats why i dont say to much about
it when they talkin to me about it....

JAY?????????? WHAT YOU THINK!!!!!!!!!




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