mkbradley08

Getting Through
2010-05-26 18:13:19 (UTC)

Day 5

So today I thought was going to be a great day. Last night
Josh and I agreed to text each other when we woke up and I
was going to tell him what I ate and something I love about
him and vice versa. Well we did that and it was great, so I
decided to ask Josh to go get ice cream with me tonight, I
told him I would pay and we could go walk on the boardwalk.
I was trying to be sweet and ask him on a date, and he just
kinda shut me down. He told me he was going to some concert
at his dad's church with his brother, which is fine, but we
could go after or before, when I suggest that, he doesn't
respond. Well it's been about 45 minutes and he hasn't
responded. I just am trying so hard here and it's like he
can't give me thirty minutes. I just don't understand any of
it. I'm not mad at all at him, I'm just upset and confused.
I want to see him and I want to talk to him. I just miss my
boyfriend and my best friend so bad. I just want to spend
some time with him. It stinks so bad. I'm just trying to not
cry, I'm trying to think of something someway to make him
see the changes in me, but he won't give me a chance.

I really can't seem to figure out what to do. I miss the
love of my life so much, and I can't seem to figure out how
to either a. get him back, or b. move on. I just don't
understand. urggg




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