Missing someone

L-O-V-E
2010-05-23 16:06:47 (UTC)

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Today is the 2nd day after she left me completely. The past 2
days was filled with emotions and memories of us together in
happier times. I still vividly remember that night when we
said our last goodbye. I've never cried so hard in my life
over another person. Maybe its right that I did. I finally
felt just how much pain she is going through. It hurts, it
hurts so badly that whenever I think of her not being there
ever again, I feel a tug to my heart, my mind goes blank and
complete sadness fills me till I want to cry. There is nothing
else in the world to make this feeling go away and I am and
will be carrying this pain for the rest of my life.

I know she is carrying the same hurt and the same pain. When
we kissed and held each other, I knew that her feelings for me
never did die. It felt good to reconnect again but it makes
saying goodbye all the harder.

I don't know what is going to happen tomorrow or how much of a
changed person I am. Not seeing her in our monthly meetings
will definitely not make it easier. I've caught her staring at
me a few times since we broke off and now I will never, ever
see that again.

Whatever it is, I must do it. I want to do it. And I hope she
does it too.

Goodnight baby, I hope you feel better and get well soon....




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