Dreamer

Dreams
2010-05-20 16:42:04 (UTC)

The Dreams Have Started Again...

I have never put much time into my dreams, although, many
have said I should. I do not believe that I can foretell
anything in my dreams, if something comes real it just does.
I try not to freak myself out when it does, my mental
stability is all I have from loosing it completely. I try
to stay happy, I try to stay calm. But these dreams are
just to weird, real, and horrifying. I know that some of my
dreams are just that dreams weird things that go through my
head. Some of the "Oddly Vivid" ones I take with a grain of
salt.
Last night the dream was not something that could ever be
real but it freaked me out none the less, I feel like I have
not slept in days now, and I don't want to stop the dreams,
but I want to understand them so I don't wake up crying or
needing to hear someones voice.
Most of my nights are made up of broken sleep, I try to stay
asleep but something pushes me into that twilight zone where
if I open my eyes I am fully awake, or if I keep them shut I
fall back into the dream or another dream.
-First dream I had was about me walking, there was shattered
glass and rubble everywhere, I was not wearing shoes and I
could feel my feet bleeding and everything cutting into me.
I had a lantern, not that it helped much it was so dark, I
just remember looking down, I couldn't pick my head up, no
matter how hard I tried. As I walked I vomited, but it was
not the black stuff coming out of me that freaked me out, it
was the dead mice, every time I vomited a dead mouse would
come up with this dark black goo. I couldn't stop myself,
or look away, I couldn't stop walking I could only push on.
Then something pushed me into the twilight sleep, and i
kept my eyes sealed shut I didn't want to wake up.
-I plunged head first into another dream, it was an odd one,
nothing that could be real, but still it was as if I was
searching looking for something. someone said if it is your
first time it will be okay we need the petroleum down here.
I was in a house, not my house, it was dark and light all at
the same time, a mixture of weird filtered lighting. There
were a lot of people, thousands of them, some people I knew
others were just faces that I passed. I remember constantly
looking at a staircase, it held nothing for me, but I
remember looking at it as if one day it would hold something
for me. My entire family was there, all except my brother.
I don't remember looking for him or even missing him, I just
knew he was not there and that I would never see him again.
Every time I looked at my mother severe overwhelming love
was all I could feel. We were under the ocean, there were
many rooms and I remember not being human anymore, none of
us were, we still looked human, but we weren't real humans.
I remember flicking my tongue a lot, and when I did a weird
blue light would come from the front of my face, I couldn't
see it though, and I felt like for some reason I had
tentacles on my face. But other than that everyone looked
normal, we all wore black, and every female had long hair.
We had to go the the surface, and I remember going up, then
I was in an old rusted jeep looking truck. No top, and I
was driving fast, really fast, and my hair was blowing in
the wind. Cop sirens turned on and i didn't even flinch i
was not afraid of them I didn't have to be, they were like
me, and people like me didn't have issues, we just existed.
But i looked to my left as i was pulling over and there was
a beautiful young girl about my age sitting next to me, and
I felt such pity and horror for her. She was my best friend
I could feel that much, but i didnt know her i have never
seen her before in my life. And i knew i had to get the
cops away from her. I convinced them that we were both like
them and that we had not seen any humans. She told me where
to go and i drove, she said she would make it all better. I
don't remember being int he place, I dont remember anything
happening to me all i remember is being by the house ship
thing with the weird filtered light, and i was human once
more. I had to get my mother I didnt care about anyone
else, they all came with me. These bunch of humans who had
the ability to turn people back. I betrayed them, I gave
them to the people in charge, I dont remember if they were
going to be killed or changed but i didnt see her again and
i didnt care. The Queen (I want to say I have no clue who
she was but she was in charge.) She turned me back like
them, and I went to find my mother once more. I was told we
were going back down to the bottom of the ocean, I was
standing on the staircase, and i looked down there was no
floor. We plunged into the sea, and the water started
flowing up the staircase, every one was there all lined up.
But the stairs were cracked and battered, and they started
to fall away one by one. People started to panic. I threw
my niece to a higher part of the stair case and told her to
run. Then I found my mother, we started running up the
stairs, some people were screaming and running others just
stood there. The stair my mother was on gave out and i
tried to catch her but i couldnt i couldnt catch her and
hold her, she slipped into the black dark abyss i knew there
was water there but instead of just floating she just faded
into the dark. Then i remember seeing sea foam and looking
at the stairs cracking and breaking and i jumped, but i dont
know if i made it or not.

Now my head feels like a punching bag and like i have not
slept for days. These dreams just suck, they take so much
from me, I can't even sleep during the day at all, they come
on even worse. I just want to have normal dreams. Not like
these awful things.




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