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2010-05-10 02:34:43 (UTC)

Mother's Day-give myself a break

Has so much resentment built up towards J. I stormed out of
the house and checked in a hotel today. Watched two movies
and ordered room service....

By the night time, I started missing him and T. Browsing the
internet trying to find advice on husband who doesn't like
family life. Calmed down a little. One article was really
good. It said that there is no way I could change him like
this. I have to either accept him or move on. I guess I
still love him? or I am so afraid of the unknown future for
me and Troy? I think I do still love him. There is something
about this man that I am addicted to. I think it's because
we are so similar in many ways and it feels comfortable.......

Life is hard..

What made me happy today:
Spend time with Troy
Clean up some of his old Toy
Watching movie by myself




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